too-disturbed

just one last cigarette, to take away this pain, just one more little drink, to stop stop me from going insane, cause breathing just doesn't feel the same no more. just one more tiny pill, to take away this arrogance, this confidance in me, just one last little cut, to bleed away this hurt inside, its all I ask. just one more backyard fuck, to take away this lust, just one more crazy stunt, cause broken bones can heal, but broken hearts are real. this abuse can't go on, but we're all so apathetic, so pathetic when we're young, sometimes we just forget, whats going on.

I look across this restraunt, and everyones so desperate to please, it makes me warm inside, to think of it last night, when the clientell were much more abliged, to look away, and pay no attention to the both thats in the corner, a meal is so much longer now I'm just eating for one. its stuck in my throat, its making choke, I can't get these words out, and now there's no hope, of keeping this together, love never lasts forever, but my heart still beats, whatever you can say. I walk through this street, and all the people I meet, can't help but stop and stare, through the hair on my face, and the whole in my faith, and th

I look across this restraunt, and everyones so desperate to please, it makes me warm inside, to think of it last night, when the clientell were much more abliged, to look away, and pay no attention to the booth thats in the corner, a meal is so much longer now I'm just eating for one. its stuck in my throat, its making choke, I can't get these words out, and now there's no hope, of keeping this together, love never lasts forever, but my heart still beats, whatever you can say. here in the street, everyone I could meet, can help but stare. at the hair in my face, and the look in my eyes, as I'm looking down at the floor.

                 |The City Of Angels Never Sleeps| There lays her virgin mind, filled with thoughts of bright city lights, and music and dancing with gentlemen, broadwalks are paved with gold they say, but the grass is never greener, away from home. there lays her virgin mind, raped by evil eyes, no music and dancing, just 10 second romancing, the broadwalks run thick with blood, there's never been greener grass but mud. she staggers out from appartment block, her underwear around here knees everything she ever wanted, thrown away for a cheep buck, everylast shred of dignity, gone for just that one last, fuck. there lays

baby, you know it makes me sweat, when I think of him hurting you. his hands upon your thighs, baby, you know it kills me inside, when I think of him in love with you. I divorce these lies, I'm leaving you tonight, I'm walking out on life, from now on your shadow, is all you have following you. his skin upon your chest, baby it makes me wretch, when I think about him feeling you, his lips upon your head, baby, you know he'll end up dead, in a pool of blood he cries. I divorce these lies, I'm leaving you tonight, I'm walking out on life, from now on your shadow, is all you have following you. the letters in your desk, bab

I'm sorry to everyone I've hurt lately in my life, I just haven't been myself lately... I don't know whats going on... I've ruined so many peoples lives lately... and all I'm doing now is trying to pick up the pieces. I just want everything to be back how it was, before I became like this. I guess its too much to ask. but I don't think its too much to ask that people leave me alone to make amends for my resent behaviour... only god knows how much I've hurt because of what has happened lately. no I'm not looking for sympathy because I do not deserve it... I know that... everyone else knows it... but nothing will ever get sorted out if everyone

I carve your name into my arm, my teeshirt wet with sweat shows it, I wear your face on my sleeve with pride, and our first kiss is burnt into my heart. into my heart. how long did you think that we could keep this going on, how long did you think that you could substitute our love, why did you substitute our love, for lust my dear. I'm cold, (cold) burried 6 feet under, how could I ever realise (why could I never realise) that this was all a lie. cause I've been sold, (sold) sold out for my heart now, nothing ever holds together, (together) unless its bonds are strong. I hear your name on the wind, I saw your face in the st

I would run for you, look down the barrel of a gun, for you, So how about I run with you, run so far, this pain is just a sinking feeling, I know the future doesn't look too appealing, but I promise you I'll change that. So will you run with me, and we'll make a life, look down the barrel of a gun for me, you'll be my wife, I'll be your someone, you'll be my everything, and I'll be something to you. yea I would jump for you, and I would fight, for you, so how about I run to you, I'd run so far, this pain is just a sinking feeling, I know the future doesn't look too appealing, but I promise you I'll change that. I pity t